by the way this is something along the lines of what i consume every night for SUPPER. Nasi Lemak - coconut milk, FRIED egg, MEATball soup with lots of fat, sambal...omg wth right, i am getting fat. I wish the fats would go to my boobs, unfortunately for me the first place the fats go to are my cheeks. -_-

im interning 9 to 6pm now so sadly i dont have much time to do rubbishy stuff like stalk people of facebook and do mindless surfing. i earn maybe $2/hr or something like that and I sleep by 12midnight everyday and i stop eating supper already (YES!) i actually have practically no time to do anything because all i want to do when i get home is have dinner and watch tv and then go to bed.


anyway...yesterday was confronting.

in retrospect, it was not fair to me at all - to jump at my back for something that you did for more than half the time we were together, at a magnitude that was far bigger. if we had the chance to start all over again, things would be perfect. unfortunately people get conditioned to behave a certain way after some time. i put in 120% in the past, learnt the hard way by having it all unappreciated and taken for granted - so in the long run i adapted and learnt that 80% is enough. i cant just put back the 20% in a snap so give me time, like i gave it to you, and dont make me feel like im being shit in the mean time.

sorry to the guy who's party i crashed and then like made it awkward. actually maybe i was too much of a wallflower for anyone to bother about. whichever it was, sorry for the bad manners.