we
|
|
send
plug
profile
2x C.C.
3x 06031988 4x Candypulp 5x CHIJ/SAJC/NUS 6x Dancedance- 7x Contact Me Wishlist
Spend a Christmas in NYC
Links
Facebook
Friendster
Ooga SAJC Dance
IJ Dance
Lyss
Beverley
Cerise
Celena
charlotte
heon
hong heng
Jeanette
Jo
musa
reza
rini
shamini
sangita
Sheryl
Teng Ming
weiyan
yingli
yvonne
yiqin BryanBoy
Face Hunter
Archives
June 09 May 09 April 09 March 09 Feb 09 January December November October September August July June May April |
starships★
Thursday, February 26, 2009
this is what it feels like Labels: things that cannot be photographed
Tuesday, February 24, 2009
The light shines through Some time ago, we met up for lunch at crystal jade during school!    and then Lunch again the other day!      can you believe i have an arm ache from shopping. i bought a pair of shoes i'ld been eying from C&K at 30%, and then a further 10% because 1 of the diamontes were missing (whee!) Another pair of flats from Cotton On, the $14.95 ones, and a pair of earrings. Cotton On is pretty amazzziinnngg. and followed by dinner       I went to watch He's Just Not that Into You. Reminded me of Love, Actually because of all the different stories. I quite liked it because it was real. I mean, not everyone ends up happy in the end but good for those that do. -edit-  what is this lame emo shot... i think for me, i am going no where at this point of time. i will just stay for the sake of staying till i find my footing. then i will pack up and go, hopefully to a greater and happier place.  lighting - swee!
Monday, February 23, 2009
1. IT1003 essayCorinne's Term Break Agenda 2. NM2102 Biblography 3. GEK1511 VPN and Bizfile Presentations 4. Marketing Case Study on St. James (!) 5. Marketing analysis on BreadTalk 6. Study for IT test 7. Study for NM test 8. PLAN A BIRTHDAY PARTY (?) on strict budget. ok turning 21 is a pain. I would like to have a party..i think because i dont want to look back when im old and haggard and regret not having a party. At the same time, i rather not have a party then have a sucky one you know what i mean? so anyway, if i have this imaginary party of mine, i'm footing the bill (hate asking my dad for money yuck) so choices are limited haha. i was thinking of BYOE (BRING YOUR OWN EVERYTHING) PARTY!!! then i save money on food and booze - although im really not that a big booze fan. not my idea of glamourous... so okk...this is me rambling to myself, weighing options.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
well how do i begin...I am the sort of person who refuses to acknowledge the weak side of me. Often i put on a strong front and pretend that everything is alright, even when the inside of me is crumbling. But today, maybe i will be candid about it.we go hot, then we go cold Our relationship is going through a rough patch/is on the rocks and what have you. You have no idea how mentally exhausting it is. I feel very tired now...every 3 days we will quarrel, over the same old things that surfaced in the initial part of our relationship. I think it is difficult to reconcile some differences that we have because it's the way we've been living the past 20 years. Old habits die hard, a pity ours clash. When friends ask why I am still with him, i cannot pinpoint a anything. i cannot remember what i am holding on to anymore. There are many things i resent, many unhappy memories i have, all tucked neatly under my pillow so that one day i may take them out and throw it back in his face. I've been telling him how much i hate him the past few days. I think more so, I hate the fact that i had no control over my own happiness. I am a personality D(I), i took the test in secondary school and i must say it's spot on. If so, then he must be the exact opposite. D people pack their time tables with many tasks everyday. They push themselves (and people they work with) to their limits. Effective Traits: Direct, Self Assured, Gets Results. Ineffective Traits:Dictatorial, Demanding, Sarcastic i push him, i think i push him over the cliff sometimes but that's the way i want to do it. i am forcing an impossible change. What's the point. we are happy one day and in the throes the next. When we are physically face to face, we are happy. Or at least when I am angry it remains a squabble. It's not that we are merely physically attracted to each other, we're not. oh man we're not physically attracted to one another; stress. when 2 people have to accommodate each other there's a strain. Chagrin and bare with it, accept it, or change. When you can accept neither of those options then is it difficult to find an alternate route. i dont think it's fair for him to put up with all my verbal abuse, i dont think it's fair for me to let things slide when im not happy. Perhaps the most terrifying thing is learning how to let go, and that may be the very thing keeping us together.
Saturday, February 21, 2009
On the way home, a guy who smelt of cigarette smoke and Davidoff's Cool Water sat down next to me. i started to choke.8 days left.
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Art Exhibition  CNM kickstarts our 10th anniversary celebrations with our first public multimedia exhibition of students’ works. Comprising children’s storybooks (NM2208), video clips (NM3208), video games (NM3216), posters (NM3217) and photographs (NM3223) Now, now. My department is too cool. (!!!!) Our children's story book is going to be displayed there. Am quite happy cuz my name is gonna be there haha, but i think all the credit goes to Audrey because i only did the colouring and she drew everything. BUT RIGHT, colouring is complex too ok, dont think it's that simple. will share pictures soon, because the dude above is not from my module. Labels: School
Tuesday, February 17, 2009
Food porn.Hello Life    This Lemon Meringue beats ANY other meringue, especially the gross one from Canale. See the thing about this one, is that the meringue is whipped till a marshmellow texture, is carefully layer a top a tart filled with lemoney goodness. The sweet, sour, cripsy and gooey taste and texture meld in your mouth to produce a heavenly gastronomical experience. i could have died right on the spot.       Eggs Benedict on ham and baby spinach with Hollandaise sauce  Can you believe, we made if for breakfast! ok but we cheated, this place serves Breakfast till 6pm hahha.  Oooh chocolate syrup art. This hot chocolate had a lovely foam top and was 1/4 filled with chocolate syrup. Looking at this is making me super hungry. i had raisin bread soaked in milk this morning for breakfast. Sort of like instant bread pudding except just cold. NUS Dance Blast. Free!           i really enjoyed this production! Instead of having blackouts, dance blast used 6 super entertaining comedians to kill time and oh my god, they were wonderful. (see bottom right picture)
Friday, February 13, 2009
Tonight, on Valentine's Eve... The thing that i am looking MOST forward to is.... ~ ~ ~ ~ ~~ ~~~~ WATCHING SURVIVOR OMG NEW SEASON!!!! Labels: survivor
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
There is PMS - which stands for Premenstrual Syndrome but there is also PPMS.cannot fucking stand it PPMS stands for Post-Premenstrual Syndrome then there is also MS, which is just Menstrual syndrome so girls, you have a reason to be grumpy all year round with ppl who piss you, annoy you, irk you, and make you wanna slap them.
Saturday, February 07, 2009
Can you believe, i still remember who my first crush was? His name was Sean, i remember that he wore glasses, he had golden brown skin and a bowl-shaped hair cut. I dont ever recall talking to him, but i was close to his cousin. Her name was Tiffany and she was a Caucasian, so i assume Sean was Eurasian. My memory fails me with every passing year...but somehow, his face has been etched into a corner of my brain.What will you do to find out if your crush is into you? It's amazing how your brain retains memories...from 17 years ago... KINDERGARTEN PUPPY LOVE. so cute. Ah, but my love was unrequited...destined to waste away. How did i know? Maybe i tried to seduce but it never worked because...he was into my BEST FRIEND!!!! now THAT was pretty obvious so there was no need to find out if he was into me. Why sia. Why wasnt he into me :( Look at me back then.  poster child for "CHINESE" during National Day OK. you know how many Chinese ppl there were in my session!? A LOT OK, but i was the most special of course. *cough* You know when you're like 6 years old - you say things like, "i like you and i wanna marry you when i grow up!" and pretty much the next day or so you dont remember what you say anymore. (Cant say this happen to 20 year olds but well.) Here ends my first love story. Squashed, Like a limping cockroach with no feelers. and before i end  boy in question - i think he is the one in the middle, holding flags the wrong way. Actually you know, come to think of it i cant really remember what he looked like. So...i grew up. growing pains. i had a few crushes..maybe like 4. 5 if you count Ivan from So You Think You Can Dance.  So How do you find out if your crush is into you? This is what i used to do when i was a teenager: (SRESS: teenager) 1) FIND THEIR FRIENDSTER ACCOUNT walau dont judge me, everybody did that. This is also assuming you know his name and school. Because if your crush is someone you walked past in Orchard Road, then a bit difficult. Anyway once you find their account can you PLEASE NOT BE SO DESPERATE and add them immediately?? Must wait around 3 days and casually add them there after. You must also pretend that you 'stumbled' upon their account. You did not type their name and school in the search box. 2) FIND THEIR BLOG Omg this one is totally sneaky. Find their blog and see if they blog about you. Because if they do, then obviously they have noticed you and that get's an A+!! Nothing more saddening than having a crush who does not know you exist - People like Heath Ledger, Ben Affleck and Josh Hartnet do not count. -_- 3) STALK THEM So when you find their friendster and blog all hell breaks loose! Access to PHOTOS and THOUGHTS. wow. Ok some of you must be thinking - Shouldnt Step 3 be MSN? Well now the funnny thing, is that guys are innately 'friendly', they will ask you for your MSN account and you will give it to them! I know everybody talks about oh, it's the 21st century, women should take the first step - but that's bullocks. Dont be so brazen you cheap thing! PRESERVE SOME DIGNITY! Ok for me anyway, somehow the guy always ask for my MSN so problem solved. 4) Chat with them Between me and you, i hope you are not one of those "wanna mek fren" type of person. but if you are, i wont judge you. Talk with them about anything, make sure you have a cute display pic. and yes, that is all i ever did. it WORKED...except fate had other plans for me. Crushes and me - never seem to work out for some reason. I'ld actually be messaging them, talking to them every night and that sort of thing but somehow it would never click. It would be the wrong time, the wrong place. There would just be something. But when i look back, i guess maybe it's not such a bad thing after all. Because you know the thing with your crush, is that you'll always have the perfect memory of them. Sometimes when you get into a relationship, the beautiful things dont last as long as you would like them to. With crushes however, you can remember how you used to admire them from afar, giggle to yourself and coo about how cute they were, daydream on long bus rides home of both of you together. That little shiny bubble of confetti that used to pop and make your heart beat fast and slow when you caught them looking over at you... And the best thing is, he will always remain like that. The memory is preserved as a sugared plum, sitting in a jar for you to sink your teeth into. Your crush will be your knight in shinning armour, your hero to rescue you...in your dreams. And that's ok. In life, as in love, you cant always have your cake and eat it. Humans are intrinsically curious, but havent you heard that curiousity killed the cat? it is a joy to find someone to love, that much i have learnt.
Nights like these... When i first entered NUS, one of my orientation leaders told me this with regard to my question on "what are the interesting modules". There are 2 types of people. (1) those that want to learn new things, and (2) those that want to do well. Apparently i have slipped into category 2. Oh the education system at its worst. Anyway, let me share with you a very pleasant night i had. Unfortunately, it was a very long time ago. oh hai.  nice and quiet, no jostling with the weekend crowd. no idiots to hit me with their bags are step on my toes.   watched a movie and had the whole theater to myself  timbre after that, you can see the stars there the one thing that never bores me is looking at the stars in the dark night sky, quiet breeze, nothing else. My most vivid memory of a starry, starry night was in Pulau Ubin during OBS. It was gorgeous, i did not sleep but counted the planes as they flew past, low. The twinkling night sky that was filled with constellation after constellation accompanied me on the uncomfortable ground covered with rubble. Too bad you cannot see stars properly in Singapore. Maybe if you're lucky, you'll spot 5..or 10. That night i saw hundreds and hundreds spread out across the sky.  had a strawberry daiquiri which was sweet :D i dont like alcohol that tastes like alcohol haha. awesome place to chill. so if you know where it is, you know where it is. not going to share :p Im going to have a children's story book, which i wrote with some course mates, displayed there soon :) The story is called Why Polar Bears are White and its a colourful, cute book with a moral! Looks like i'll be going back soon. Must check with my friend what the event is, i dont even know! Labels: things that cannot be photographed
Friday, February 06, 2009
Today i walked from Outram MRT at pick up a cheque, walked to Chinatown to get some supplies and then all the way to Clarke Quay for more supplies. I was dead tired by the end but it was worth it because when you're tired, you can't think too much. I am disillusioned, and then some. I cannot form, in words, what im holding on to anymore. so i turn to what i can to comfort myself... 2nd Feb  these are birthday cupcakes from Andrew's 2nd Birthday He likes Winnie the Pooh (hence not pictured here because he took those home)  and here's Piglet. my sis found someone online to do it this year. last year she went to the Pattersierie. IMO, actually both about the same tastewise. Second Birthday, cake's so gorgeous...what about a 21st birthday cake? what should that look like..? 31st Jan  Head over to Amelia's house to visit!! Hitched a ride from her because she lives...VERY FAR  Surprise! Amelia celebrates her 21st birthday for the third or forth time this year! Like i always say, it's not a birthday without cake! I LOVE CAKE. Cake equates to partaye.  make a wish ~  Played blackjack with amelia's friends and amelia kept getting 21! Must have been the birthday luck. So, better play more Blackjack this year because next year, when you turn 22 you're gonna lose!! Anyway amelia's mum cooked up a storm!! (hehe) She makes DAMN GOOD char siew which i ate so much of. Also went visiting at Weiliang's house the next day and we spent a good portion at the laptop looking at exhilarating websites. Food there was good too. CNY is a month of stuffing yourself silly! :D 3rd Feb   Dins at Sushi Teh with the IJ gang! I just discovered the most delicious sashimi salad from Candice.   BakerzInn for DESSERT. YUM! Their macaroons are now on sale for $1 a piece only! (up $1.60) rox and i bought some... rox being the sweet gf bought them for javier, of course i bought my macaroons for myself!! (because boys are stupid and we should throw rocks at them, not buy macaroons from them!) This anonymous commentor said, "God gave men both a penis and a brain, but unfortunately not enough blood supply to run both at the same time." Rox and i lol'ed in lecture. YOU ROCK.   ooohhh. i love desserts. my favourite part of the meal. it will totally make or break the dinner, i swear.   We ordered a New York Cheesecake. Qibing refussseess to take photos and amelia...ivan meddled with my cam and the setting are weird now!! why my P mode so ORANGE?!   SAM WHERE ARE YOU. STOP READING YOUR LAW NOTES GEEZ Ok, that sums up my past week. I finally bought my marketing tb. I think the tutor does not like me, or i dont know. she seemed to be eyeballing me quite a bit. Female tension maybe hahah. And, someone also stole my IT textbook >.<> I have quite a bit of presentations and projects this sem, mainly because im taking 3 modules outside of my faculty. i hate projects, more so, i hate getting horrible group members. I would like to be in control of my own life, i dont want some dips*** screwing up my CAP because he was too caught up with his tough-life syou know what i mean? on a random note, im getting super bored with the food at the Arts Canteen. Must go eat at the Sciene Canteen sometime OK POX! Labels: Birthday, chij, cny, Food, sushi teh
Wednesday, February 04, 2009
revelation Men say women are difficult to comprehend, because men are stupid block heads! Oh my god, how did it take me 21 years to reach this conclusion. My mother told me that men's brains are in their balls, this is something else i like, you should always trust your mother.  Labels: boys are smelly throw rocks at them
Monday, February 02, 2009
Today is an extremely bad day...it's ending in half an hour and hopefully tomorrow will be happier!When it rains, it pours... Let me elaborate why today was a bad day :( 1) had a bad sleep 2) alarm clock did not ring (!!!) 3) woke up at 8.30am 4) tutorial started at 9am 5) took a cab to school 6) it was congested from CTE to PIE to AYE, to Sixth Ave, to Farrer Road 7) reached class at 9.20am, and it was so useless 8) class ended at 9.45am ='/ 9) found out there was no Marketing lecture...this meant i had a 6 hour break till my next lesson :( 10) my dress was see through and i had to do something funny to cover up 11) Bookshop auntie cheated me of $0.20 12) forgot to bring my EZlink card 13) new shoes gave me blisters 14) Last class ended during peak hour 15) took 1.5 hours to get home 16) no dinner at home for me 17) i am not happy, and that's the only thing i want right now unlucky #17  Labels: things that cannot be photographed
|
